Today, as I turn 56, I find myself looking back—not just at my photographs, but at my life.

For perhaps the first time, I am consciously reviewing the journey I have travelled, the choices I have made, the dreams I carried, the ones I lost along the way, and the ones that quietly found a different form.
I once dreamed of becoming a cinematographer.

The fascination with cinema, moving images, light and storytelling was there long before photography became my profession. That dream eventually led me to the College of Fine Arts in Thiruvananthapuram, where I chose to study painting.
I didn’t know then that painting would teach me one of the most important things in my life:
how to see.



Early experiments that became the first steps of my photographic journey. Color negative film
Light. Composition. Space. Colour. Silence. The relationship between people and their surroundings.
After completing my studies, I briefly became a teacher. But the urge to work with images never left me. In 1997, I took a leap and left teaching to pursue photography.
That decision changed my life.
Photography took me to places I could never have imagined and introduced me to people whose lives often became more important to me than the photographs themselves.
Delhi became my workplace and, for many years, my world. I worked in photojournalism, with Outlook and India Today, travelled extensively, worked on assignments, documentaries and independent projects, and slowly developed my own way of seeing.
The cinematographer in me never disappeared.
He simply found another language.
Photography became my primary medium. Moving images continued to find their way into my work. Painting remained somewhere within me. And eventually, photomontage became another way of bringing these worlds together.
Looking back, I realise my journey has never really been a straight line.
It has been a series of detours.
Dreams becoming professions.
Professions becoming passions.
Passions becoming questions.
And now, after many years away, I am back in Kerala.
Being here has made me look at home differently. Familiar landscapes feel different. Old memories meet new realities. And perhaps, after spending so many years looking at the world through a camera, I have started looking at my own life with the same attention.
At 56, I don’t feel that I have reached a destination.
If anything, I feel I am beginning to understand the journey.
I have photographed people, faith, migration, work, loneliness, celebration, struggle, landscapes and everyday life. But perhaps the most important thing photography has given me is the ability to pause and look.
To be present.
To notice what others might pass by.
To understand that every frame contains more than what is visible.
Today, I am grateful for the people I have met, the places I have travelled, the opportunities I received, the mistakes I made, the disappointments I survived, and the unexpected doors that opened when others closed.
There is still so much I want to photograph, create and understand.At 56, I am not looking back to close a chapter.
I am looking back to understand where I came from—and to see more clearly where I want to go. The dream of telling stories through images is still alive. Through all the changes, successes, disappointments and uncertainties, one thing has remained: the need to look, to make, and to tell stories.
I don’t know exactly where the road ahead will take me. But I know I am not finished.
There are still stories to tell, images to make, and places to explore.
The journey has brought me here.
The road ahead is still calling.
And I will keep walking, camera in hand, still looking, still learning, still seeing.



















































